Well, I woke up this morning, and I got myself a…wait…IT’S STILL FUCKING MARCH!! OMG!!
An upset Pam Beasley from The Office Giphy.com
I have little concept of time anymore. The only reminder that it is still a thing is my “To Do” list on Canvas. Otherwise, it all just blends together.
Sour Cream from Steven Universes saying “Time is an illusion” Giphy.com
I was productive yesterday. At least, I think it was yesterday. Not with school, of course. Instead, I organized my closet and got rid of 5 garbage bags worth of clothes.
London Tipton from Suite Life of Zach and Cody smiling and clapping Giphy.com
As you can probably tell, my mind is functioning almost solely on memes and gifs at this point. That and online shopping. OMG! MAKE ME STOP BUYING SHIT!!
I’m going to run tomorrow morning. Dave’s Running has virtual races for the next 4 weeks, so I signed up for those. Hopefully, DeWine doesn’t shut down the parks because people are being stupid and congregating in groups at the parks now!
Philip J. Fry from Futurama yelling “Stop acting so stupid” through the wrong end of a bullhorn Giphy.com
And on that note, I’m off to read my weekly affirmations from the rhetorical bible.
Today, I went to Olander Park in Sylvania to run. I went early, and it was so much nicer than Wildwood the other day! There were very few people there, and everyone was staying six feet or more apart. It was lovely.
I think it will be my spot to run from now on. There are no hills, it’s a gorgeous run around the lake (so no chance of getting lost), and there was an older lady who would cheer me on every time I passed her. I loved her. It really helped me out.
I ran 3.31 miles today, and I completed the Bob Ross Happy Little Trees 5k virtual run. It was a perfect Bob Ross worthy place to run it.
I really hope Ohio can keep our parks open. Wildwood was so crowded the other day though. At least at Olander there aren’t many parking spots, so it won’t get as busy. I hope anyway.
To end this post, here’s a short video I made after my run. Stay safe and 6 feet apart out there, people!
First day of online teaching. I didn’t really have anything to do except email my students. I have the week’s module all set, I’m trying to make this as easy for them as possible. (Which means no synchronous stuff!)
I also got emails/updates on my own classes. One professor is (as someone in my cohort described him) an academic angel. I swear there isn’t a nicer human being on the planet and is eliminating grades on our stuff for the remainder of the semester. We still need to do the work, but if we have issues, we don’t have to worry about our grades. My professor for my other 2 classes is giving us time to get used to the new way of life and has pushed back readings and project due dates. I love my program.
Not all heroes wear capes
Because I have been under so much stress the past few weeks, (I mean who hasn’t been?) I needed to get outside and run. We are under lockdown here in Ohio, but we can still go to parks. I had never run the trails at one of our parks, so I decided to go today. The best way to describe what happened is it was a beautiful disaster. Beautiful because I wanted to run at least 6.5 miles, and I ran/walked 7.1!
It was a disaster because…well, just watch this video.
Nearing the end of week 3 of the new semester, and I’m already feeling like this…
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I’m responding to some questions for a class about how I capture emerging ideas, how do I organize publications of others, where do I write, what does my weekly schedule look like…
I realized that on paper, it actually looks like I’ve got my shit together. So why don’t I feel like I do? Why do I feel like I’m barely keeping my head above water, and the sharks are circling?
I’ve realized while completing these projects, breaking them down into manageable sections will be what’s best, especially the annotated bibliography.
My plan is to have a library day where library staff show them how to use the databases. Then, they will have to bring in 2-3 annotations a week to workshop them in class. My hope is to avoid too much procrastination on their part, as well.
I would also like to incorporate the poster presentation in some way. It helped me get a better grasp on what I was researching and also helped me to appreciate it a lot more. At first, I didn’t think I would be interested in pursuing more research or other projects based on what my topic ended up being. But after seeing the results of the survey and putting all the results into a poster made me very excited about a lot of other possibilities with it. I think it would be very beneficial to have my students do the same. They may discover a new interest or area of study to pursue.
The discourse communities project went as well as expected. As typical, there are a group of students who have continued to take risks with their writing and have fully embraced the idea of writing isn’t limited to essays. I saw genres of news articles, informational pamphlets, emails, and Instagram posts. And there is another group of students who are doing the bare minimum. This is the group that I always feel I failed in some way. I know it’s probably not true, and the reality is that not every student is going to be as excited about writing as I am. But, I can’t help but feel as if I failed to reach them in some way.
While teaching, I’ve also been working on the projects my students will be doing next semester. Writing a critical incident analysis, creating a research question and a survey to test that question, writing a proposal, and lastly, creating a poster presentation of all of my work. These projects have been very interesting. I researched the link between writing anxiety, self-efficacy, procrastination, and microagressions of a patriarchal society. Procrastination is of interest to me, especially. As you can see, even though all of my blog posts have been written in class; guess who procrastinated in actually posting them?
You think I would’ve learned something in preventing that in all of this research. But, alas, I have not. What I did learn is that first-year writing students have A LOT of writing anxiety, and it contributes greatly to procrastination. I also learned that while those who identified as women didn’t believe they had been made to feel inferior due to their gender; many of them still heard microaggressions from men. These included statements that began with “what you should’ve done…” or “what I would’ve done…”
Now obviously, my sample size of 36 isn’t exactly representative of all first-year writing students, but it does create many questions for future study. Whether or not I will complete those futures studies remains to be seen. But, it would be very interesting to learn more about nonetheless.
At this point in the semester, my students have completed the literacy narrative and rhetorical remix. I have to say, I’m happy with their work so far. The majority of the students are still engaged and completed assignments on time. They took risks with their remixes and did very well with them. However, there is a small number of students who either did not turn in the final draft or did very little revisions. Some of them didn’t even complete a remix of the prior writing. Their reflection was written expressing all of the things they would want to change, but they didn’t go and actually change them. I don’t know if this was due to confusion about the assignment, mid-term stress, not wanting to do it, or a combination of all of those.
My hope is the discourse community project will spark some interest because it won’t involve looking at their past work.
I can’t believe I forgot about the Doctor Who activity I had my students do!
On the last day before rough drafts were due, we watched the Doctor Who episode, “Midnight.” For those not familiar with the episode, it’s from season 4, episode 11. Amazon Prime’s description of it is…
The Doctor is trapped, alone, powerless and terrified, on the leisure planet Midnight. Soon, the knocking on the wall begins. Only a woman called Sky seems to know the truth – but as paranoia turns into a witch-hunt, Sky turns the Doctor’s greatest strengths against him, and a sacrifice must be made.
It’s a bit of a spooky episode which is perfect for right before Halloween!
At a certain point in the episode (right after he asks “Could you really murder someone? Or are you better than that?”), I stop the video. Students must then decide if they would side with the Doctor, or throw the woman out of train. I give them 5 minutes to write a post to me, telling me their decision, and the reasons for that decision.
After their decisions are made and submitted, we finish watching the rest of the episode. The first question I asked when the show finished was “Would it have made a difference if I had added the constraint that your decision would have been on a discussion thread where everyone else in the class would’ve seen it?” They overwhelmingly said yes!
We spent the rest of the class time discussing all of the rhetorical moves made throughout the episode (there are a lot!). It’s always a fun way to end the first part of the unit.
I started the rhetorical analysis unit a couple of weeks ago. It’s my favorite to teach. I mean, it makes sense because that is what I’m getting my PhD in, after all. I wanted to wait to post in my journal though until before rough drafts were due so that I could reflect on the first part of the unit as a whole. This is going to be a long one!
I started the unit by discussing exigence, Kairos, and audience/constraints. I had them read about and define the terms prior to our class discussion. I use an activity that I love that I call “The Situation.” My students in the past have always had fun with. I put them in the situation that while driving to their mid-term biology exam they are texting their friend, run a red light, and get in a car crash while driving their grandma’s car. No one is hurt, but both vehicles are towed away, they are cited for the accident, and they miss their mid-term. They then have to create an email to their professor asking for a chance to re-take the mid-term (knowing their professor is old and cranky and probably won’t allow it). They also have to create a text message to the friend they were texting at the time of the accident and ask for a ride. Lastly, they create a script of what they are going to say to Grandma when they Facetime her after they get home. I have them do this as a discussion post, so everyone can see each other’s writing. We then read through them as a class, discussing exigence, Kairos, and audience along the way.
This is always a fun way for them to realize the rhetorical situations they find themselves in on a day-to-day basis. It’s also a cool way to show how audience affects rhetorical choices.
The next
class, we looked at the rhetorical appeals of ethos, pathos, and logos. After a
short lecture/discussion, I had 5 stations set up around the room (I’m in a
huge computer lab and have been really wanting to use the space to my
advantage). At each station, I had different types of advertisements. Station 1
was a video Snickers ad with Betty White from a past Super Bowl; Station 2 was
two activism ads (one from Moms Demand Action, the other from the ACLU);
Station 3 was 2 cigarette ads from the 1930s; Station 4 was a political ad from
a local primary election in Toledo; and Station 5 was a movie poster from the
film Titanic. The students were in groups and had to work together to find one
example each of logos, pathos, and ethos at each station. Afterward, they wrote
their results on the whiteboards. This activity went long, so we ended up
having to save the discussion for the next class. At first, I was happy about
it because it gave me more time to review everything they had found. But the
next class was a Tuesday, so there was a long break between the activity itself
and discussion of it. That was not so great because many of them forgot or
weren’t as excited about it after 5 days. Next time, I would either only have 4
stations, or limit the time they spend at each station, so we could cover it
all in one class.
We then
moved on to style, arrangement, and delivery. There was a short lecture, then I
had them go back to their car accident discussion board and do 2 things. First,
comment on their own post about how they used ethos, pathos, and logos in their
email, text, and Facetime with Grandma. Second, discuss how aspects like
appeals, style, and arrangement might change if the delivery method was
different for each person. What if it had to be a phone call to the professor? What
if they had to send an email to Grandma?
After
this, they had time to brainstorm about their own project. I am having them do
a rhetorical remix. They need to find a prior piece of writing, analyze it
rhetorically, then pick at least 2 major aspects and remix them. After the
remix, they are to write a reflection about what they remixed, why, how, etc.
As
always, I wondered if my students were understanding the concepts of this unit.
I would often get blank stares or a few head nods in response to what we
discussed. But after reading what they wrote in their brainstorming session, I was
so happy! Not only were they understanding the concepts, they came up with such
unique and interesting ways to remix their old writing! Most are taking some
piece of prior academic writing, but turning it into videos, presentations, social
media posts, poems, short stories, so many creative things! I’m so excited to see
the finished pieces!
Last
night, I couldn’t fall asleep. Nothing new. It takes a while for my brain to
calm down enough to realize, ‘hey, it’s sleepy time now’. I was laying there trying
to figure out why I keep clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth. Yes, I’m under
stress right now, but I’ve been under more stress in the past, and I never
clenched my jaw to the point my molars are begging me to stop! I love my
classes I’m taking; I love the class I’m teaching. Why do I have I had this perpetual
tense feeling?
So, I did
a bit self-reflection because 1:00 am is the perfect time for it; and I kind of
had an epiphany.
I spent more
than a decade in a highly adversarial environment. Being a bankruptcy attorney
in the Eastern District of Michigan is no walk in the park. It’s an immeasurable
amount of stress on a daily basis.
From
there, I became a college instructor. So much less stress every day, but where
I was teaching had an adversarial vibe. There was not much in the way of
collaboration (it was virtually non-existent), and there was a divide between
full-timers and adjuncts. I think a lot of people liked to pretend it wasn’t
there, but it was. So, even though there was less stress, there was still a
fair amount of tension.
Then, I started this PhD program, and it’s all about collaboration, and let’s help each other through this, and professors who say they see me as a colleague. And this is so amazing! So again, why am I so bloody tense all the time?!?!
What I figured out is that I’ve put up a deflector shield. And this deflector shield is trying to protect me from potential adversary. I know people aren’t trying to trick me into believing they’ll help only to have them say “Sike! Fooled you!” but, I still feel this need to be on guard.
Now that
I know this is an issue, the goal will be to try to lower that shield and no
longer be on Red Alert.
Coffee with Laura Leigh 